This is my year!

December 2016 This is my year???

Holiday season in winter months, I had severe depression many years. Recent years I forced myself to get out of my house. I dressed up to attend many events that cultured people do. Because I appreciate and respect them and value them. 
Those things helped me a lot. However, at home alone, I felt sad. I have a 45-year-old son who is married and live near Sacramento. I’d love to have family bonding time. He is very busy.  I miss him.
 
I totally believed that relationship with men is too risky. 
A man who read my “blog” contacted me and asked me out. On 7/13/2016, we went out to Napa Valley. We got along very well. He wasn’t my type, however, I felt he is very sincere, fun, and feel easy to be with him. I didn’t need to pretend someone I’m not.
Now, I understand my depression and feelings of loneliness are byproducts of the need for companionship not being fulfilled. We have the need to love and be loved, which contributes to the need for companionship. I was always adamant that I don’t feel such a need. Such line of thought is simply a defense mechanism. Now I am not so sure, more time will tell.

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November 23 to December 8, 15-day cruise onboard Grand Princess.
Destinations: Hilo-Big Island, Honolulu-Oahu, Nawiliwili-Kauai, Lahaina-Maui, and (Ensenada-Mexico)

Note: A tender platform was damaged 500 miles east of Hawaii, was on it’s way to Mexico. The ship has turned around and be in Honolulu on Monday (Dec. 5) for repairs. All passengers flew to California on Dec. 6 and 7. On Dec. 7, I received 50% refund (my bank account had deposited $1,286.29 – Princess Cruise Passage Valencia.) Princess also gave 50% off voucher for the future voyage. It was a wonderful cruise. I definitely will cruise next year (2017). 

12/01/16: Lahaina, Maui. Shop at Front St. area. Taxi Tour.
12/03/16: Cruising. Discovered ship problem. Ship turn around.
12/04/16: Cruising. Big party onboard.
12/05/16: Arrived Honolulu.
12/06/16: Fly home. Honolulu to LAX, then to Sacramento.
12/17/16: Performance at California Theatre. Holiday show.
12/18/16: Dickens Christmas Fair at Cow Palace, SF
12/21/16: Shopping at Japantown, and Union Square
12/23/16: Opened Xmas presents early
12/24,25,26/16: Stayed at Fresno (130 miles). Visit his children & grandkids
12/29/16: SF Ballet – Nutcracker at Opera House
12/31/16: West Coast Conference College Basketball Game at University of Pacific. Pacific Tigers vs. Gonzaga Bulldogs

Photo Gallery – December 2016

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