Short-term Memory

August  2017

(1) Insane American politics. I’m sick of it – no comment.

(2) I am overly concerned about my “mental and physical aging.”
I clearly noticed my brain function “dementia-like symptoms,” also I started feeling stiffness in my body when I try to get up after sitting for long period of time in front of my computer.

I was organizing my closets. While sorting/fixing things, I needed something from another room. Then, it happens,  “I know I came in here for something, but I can’t remember what it is …”  Just too many occurrences. Following day, I was going to visit Golden Gate Fields Horse Races alone. I researched every step of an itinerary. My plan was to get off BART at North Berkeley station and catch GGF free shuttle bus. However, I got off at Richmond and I have no idea why.  I got to races before First Post Time.

I went out many places by myself. I’m lucky to live in Bay area where I have easy access to cultural resources and activities. Joy, excitement, new ideas, gain insight, interaction with people (even just say hello and smile.) It is much better than just setting in the house.

I know many older people prefer the quality of a rustic, solitary beauty that comes with weathering and age. That wabi/sabi no longer attract me.

I’m so eager to find new experiences. I’m free of any obligation to anyone, have a few more years to live (? hope so ?), am still mobile. Yes, Now is the time.

Long life? No.
Meaningful life? Yes.

The function of man is to live, not to exist.
I shall not waste my days trying to prolong them.
I shall use my time.”
– Jack London

8/01/17: National night out – Pittsburg, ca
8/04/17: Friday evening – Pittsburg Marina
8/06/17: Nihonmachi Street Fair – Japantown
8/08/17: Hilda Huang, Pianist – Noontime Concerts
8/08/17: Master Class – Harpsichord at SF Conservatory of Music
8/10/17: Movie “American Graffiti” special guests
8/12/17: Rosie the Riveter Rally – Richmond CA
8/13/17: Diablo Japanese Festival – Concord, CA
8/16/17: Autodesk Gallary SF
8/16/17: around The Embercadero (Rincon Annex, Greenwich & Filbert Steps)
8/17/17: Concord Summer Music & Market – Orquesta Borinquen Salsa Band
8/19/17: Civil War Living History Day at Fort Point, SF
8/20/17: Klipptones at Castro
8/20/17: Mission Dolores Park, and Basilica
8/20/17: Clarion Alley Murals
8/27/17: Dollar Day Golden Gate Field Horse Races

Photo Gallery – August 2017 events of everyday life


Trump’s New Clothes

Trump’s New Clothes

Republicanism ideology 
Republicanism is a political ideology in opposition to monarchy and tyranny. However, Trump & his Whitehouse is tyranny. I hope the Republicans in both houses unite and act now to against the emperor(Trump). Please, any Republicans, if you have some personal integrity, preserve the true meaning of “the ideology of republicanism.”


Here is Trump’s New Clothes play:
Emperor – Trump
weavers – Sly con men, top aides Whitehouse
The child (boy) – the voice of consciousness. Majority Democrats

American right-wing Conservatives admired Trump and his new clothes until (not happening yet) one boy yelled that the Emperor had no clothes on. He is the only one that spoke the truth. We have a question whether anyone needs honesty and truth in a world ruled by lies.
Hypocrisy Of Conservatives
As a general ideology, Conservatism is opposed to the ideals of Liberalism and Socialism. Conservatism generally refers to right-wing politics which advocate the preservation of personal wealth and private ownership (Capitalism) and emphasize self-reliance and Individualism.
I respect good traditional values, cultures. However, there are so many human right violations existed in many countries. Now, we are understanding equality, we are cultivating Civilised Society. Republicans & conservative call that “Progressive / Liberal.”  I think the well-developed system of government, culture, and way of life and that treats the people who live there fairly: A fair justice system is a fundamental part of a civilized society.
I faced discrimination in this country, and it’s never ending because I am not one of them(white)
Liberal, conservative, socialist, radical, left-wing, right-wing, reactionary, rightist, ultraconservative, fascist. . . etc.,
We don’t know what really meant when we use those vocabularies.
Below link is an old article compiled by the Editors of  StudentNewsDaily on 2005. It’s may help understand (?)

About Stern Grove Festival

I am disappointed how they are handling festival.
I found the comment made by David D. of Berkeley, CA  6 years ago. He wrote:
A bit of the history…Stern Grove was donated to the City by Rosalie Stern  in memory of her husband Sigmund, the principal of Levi’s Co.  Rosalie envisioned Grove concerts that;
  • Provide high-quality performances
  • Free of charge, for all Bay Area residents and visitors.
  • Provide paid performance opportunities for professional artists and performers.

About San Francisco, Municipal Railway

is the public transit system for the city and county of San Francisco. Even I don’t live in The city. I find it very good system.
Well, well, , , they are testing the new light rail trains. It’s so wrong to shut-down during the day. They should be testing during the night, the overnight hours are sufficient to figure out what works or doesn’t. Sabotaging service on summer weekends is beyond stupid.


7/01/17: Stock Car Racing @ Stockton 99 Speedway
7/01/17: Huge FireWorks @ Stockton 99 Speedway
7/02/17: Huge FireWorks @  Stockton Dirt Track
7/02/17: Vietnam War Moving Wall
7/08/17: Ethnic Dance Festival Week-One @ SF Opera House
7/13/17: “Titanic” movie Orinda Theatre
7/14/17: Monaco Boys Choir, SF City Hall Rotunda
7/15/17: “Chevron Family Theatre Fest.” Lesher Center for the Arts
7/15/17: Ethnic Dance Festival Week-Two @ SF Opera House
7/16/17: Eric Burdon + The Animals
7/18/17: Hearing
7/20/17: CA State Fair Sacramento
7/23/17: Stern Grove Festival – Los Angeles Azules
7/27/17: Napa Valley Wine Train with Gourmet Lunch
7/30/17: Stern Grove Festival – SF Ballet

Photo Gallery – July 2017 events of everyday life

Live well with less

Live well with less

Things That Matter More Than Money for a Happy Living for me

  • Health (easy to maintain)
  • People (hard to have relationships – due to hearing problem)
  • Curiosity & Experiences (Internet made easy access to knowledge)
  • Purpose (my blog)
  • Beauty & Gratitude  (in everywhere, everything, every people)
  • Time (still able to afford it – so far)

6/01/17: Thursday Concord Summer Concert& Market
6/02/17: Berkeley Community Chorus & Orchestra
6/04/17: Asian Art Museum SF
6/04/17: Union Street Festival SF
6/04/17: Museum of Craft & Design SF
6/06/17: Legion of Honor Museum. Urs Fisher Exhibit SF
6/07/17: SF Civic Symphony @ Herbst Theatre SF
6/10/17: Livermore Rodeo Parade Downtown
6/10/17: Livermore Rodeo @ Robertson Park
6/13/17: Community BBQ hosted by Fire Dept. Morada, CA
6/14/17: San Joaquin County Fair. Stockton, CA
6/15/17: CA State Railroad Museum, Sacramento, CA
6/16/17: Lunch @ Wente Vineyards, Livermore, CA
6/21/17: Surrealistic Summer Solstice Concert & Grand Lighting SF, CA
6/24/17: Pasados del Presidio – San Francisco’s Birthday
6/25/17: Movie: Belle et Sébastien (France) Antioch, CA
6/30/17: Opera at the Ballpark: Don Giovanni | AT&T Park SF

Photo Gallery – June 2017 events of everyday life


May 2017

May  2017

Sondheim’s Musical
I researched Stephen Sondheim before going to see musical “Side by Side” at Conservatory of Music. It was mesmerized to watch “BBC Proms 2010 – Sondheim at 80” on YouTube. Dame Judi Dench sang “Send In The Clowns” from A Little Night Music. Utterly spellbinding. Then I read his bio. When Sondheim was ten, his parents divorced. Sondheim explained to biographer Secrest that he was what they call an institutionalized child, meaning one who has no contact with any kind of family. you’re in an environment that supplies you with everything but human contact.
I felt the similar feeling time to time – Disowned because I married to a Caucasian. Although, I didn’t have the luxurious life in the USA.
I have seen his musical “Sweeney Todd, the Demon Barber of Fleet Street” U.S. tour, Angela Lansbury as Mrs. Lovett, many years ago in San Francisco. Two years ago (2015), I saw opera version played by American baritone Brian Mulligan and American mezzo-soprano Stephanie Blythe, sang in English at SF Opera House.

Sashay away
A woman followed me in Presidio Officer’s Club and asked me “Are you a dancer?” I said “No. Why?”. She told me I walk beautifully. After a little chat, she said “I’ll Sashay (Chassé) away” and left. I enjoyed Jazz music there.

Crocker Bank
I have many old IT related software books in my dresser, which I haven’t opened it nearly 10 years. I removed all books into recycling trash bin. Then one piece of paper dropped to the floor, a copy of altered “Dilbert” comic strips. It brought back my memories at working “Crocker Bank” and “BofA”. I remember that my interview failed with IBM, then school told me to go to Crocker Bank for an interview. I didn’t send out my resume. However, school faxed it, just like they did for IBM. CTL (Computer Traning for Disabled) and UC Berkeley professional development counselors helped me. I got my first professional job at Crocker as “Programer & Analyst” I did coding COBOL programs to run under CICS on IBM machine in Auditing Department, then in HR Department used NOMAD a relational database and 4th generation language.

Mother’s Day
I had best mother’s Day this year.

Mini Vacation
Yosemite Valley and Hetch Hetchy Dam. Majestic & serene!

Memorial Day Weekend
* I was invited to my friend Richard’s family gathering on Saturday. He has loving children and grandchildren.
* Watched Carnaval SF – the Grand Parade on Sunday.
* Presidio Memorial Day – Honor & remember fallen heroes on Monday.

5/05/17: SF City Hall Rotunda 12Noon Dance Series
5/05/17: Presidio Sessions @ Officer’s Club. Kasey Knudsen Sextet Jazz
5/05/17: Conservatory of Music – Sondheim’s “Side by Side”
5/09/17: SF Botanical Garden
5/11/17: Audrey’s concert @ the Fresno State Concert Hall
5/13/17: Performed Dance at Pittsburg Senior Health Fair
5/14/17: Mother’s Day Luncheon @Alameda, CA
5/14/17: USS Hornet Museum
5/17/17: Gift: iPhone 7 Plus 32GB
5/17/17: Dinner at Jackson Rancheria Casino. Jackson, CA
5/19/17: Trudie’s Retirement Party Concord, CA
5/23/17: Visit Hetch Hetchy O’Shaughnessy Dam, Tueeulala and Wapama Falls.
5/24/17: Visit Yosemite Valley & Glacier Point
5/27/17: Friend’s family gathering – Memorial Weekend
5/28/17: Carnaval – Grand Parade SF, CA
5/29/17: Memorial Day Ceremony

Photo Gallery – May 2017 events of everyday life

Friends & Family

April  2017 Friends & Family

I procrastinate way too much. A big pile of mess in my garage, indoor, outdoor, just everywhere. I couldn’t start cleaning because didn’t know where to start. It’s overwhelming.

My friend Richard came over at 9:00 AM with a trailer for hauling junk. His eldest son Tim and his wife Carolee came here from Fresno to help me. Richard supervised Tree-man, Tim, and Carolee had exceptionally good organizational skill. You wouldn’t believe how tasks completed efficiently. My son Robert and his wife Tina also showed up to help me.
I thanked them, and here is Carolee’s reply:

You are very welcome, that’s what family and friends are for, to help each other. : )
Honestly, it was a small task and went quickly with all of us working. Don’t feel bad, we all need to do “spring cleaning” once is a while and I am sure we all procrastinate as long as we can.
I am happy to help when you are ready to tackle the house. I love to organize and rearrange, especially for others.
Robert and Tina, it was a pleasure to meet and work with you.
Hope to see you all soon!
Carolee ♥

It made me realize the meaning of “Friends and family.”

There are many ways of defining a family and what being a part of a family means. I consider myself that I have no family for many years. Actually, I do have a son. He loves me whole a lot. I feel awkward to talk about my family relationships. 

etcetera 1
United Airlines passenger incident — When I see like that, the rage within me is all consuming and I wasn’t even a victim.

etcetera 2
The uncertainty of life — I was saddened by a stranger who I met died 2 days later. (he hit a tree while driving his 1939 Jaguar SS-100 on 4/25)

etcetera 3
“what you do with your life and what you find enjoyable with your life is up to you”

etcetera 4
Tim and Carolee Drove 150 miles to Richard’s house, then drove additional 53 miles to get to my house. Can you imagine not only they drove long distance, they worked very hard to clean, organize, and move junk. That is extraordinary acts of kindness. Richard, Tim, Carolee thank you. A month passed since then, I still cannot believe what they did for me.
I am very fortunate. I receive random acts of kindness from neighbors and complete strangers quite often. I wonder my neighbors are looking after for me because I’m a senior, single woman. You know, we forget to notice positive things so easily. Robert & Tina, you guys are always in my heart.

and again
Time marches on. We are all getting older. So, I am going to live a little longer. Be silly. Be kind. Be weird.

4/01/17: Pittsburg Women’s League Luncheon
4/02/17: Tree cutting, trimming by professional
4/02/17: Special friends helped big clean-up
4/09/17: Beaty Salon
4/14/17: DR. STRANGELOVE Classic movie
4/15/17: Lamb of God Easter Oratorio
4/17/17: Check up Women’s Health
4/21/17: A.C.T.’s Fellowship Project: Orlando by Virginia Woolf
4/22/17: Cal Day UC Berkeley – Earth Day
4/23/17: California Mille 2017 at Nob Hill
4/23/17: Kathy Mata Ballet Dance-week celebration
4/25/17: Docent-led tour. U.S. 9th circuit court of appeals
4/28/17: Opera “Mavra” and “Dido and Aeneas” SF Conservatory of Music
4/29/17: April Follies Same-Gender Ballroom Championships

Photo Gallery – April 2017 events of everyday life

Time marches on

March 2017 Time marches on

I can feel the spring warmth, my mood is more uplifting nowadays. To have a special friend is very important. He makes me feel safe and secure. When I am with him I forget how empty I felt before.
I remember Greek philosopher Socrates once said: “My advice to you is get married: if you find a good wife you’ll be happy; if not, you’ll become a philosopher.” That is true! When I was unhappy with depression my brain was so busy spinning with many thoughts, and yet I was more analytical, creative, and philosophical. Of course, there were times I often experienced “The windmills of your mind.”

My old friend Rose has departed from earth this month. She and I are the same age. We experienced similar hardships in America. She was a strong willed person, I thought she will conquer cancer. Unfortunately, she lost.
Now I am aged (my health status is fine) I like the quote by Chinese novelist Mo Yan:
“Where there’s life, death is inevitable. Dying’s easy; it’s living that’s hard. The harder it gets, the stronger the will to live. And the greater the fear of death, the greater the struggle to keep on living.”

Time marches on. We are all getting older. So, I am going to live a little longer. Be silly. Be kind. Be weird. There’s no time for anything else.

3/01/17: Met Opera: Rusalka Encore
3/05/17: Oakland Museum of California
3/07/17: RIP – Rose’s death
3/08/17: Neck Pain education class
3/13/17: Installed new shower head
3/13/17: Fixed deck stairs
3/19/17: Home & Garden show
3/23/17: mammogram
3/26/17: Pea Soup Andersen’s Santa Nella, CA
3/26/17: Casa de Fruta Hollister, CA
3/26/17: Mission San Juan Bautista

Photo Gallery – March 2017 Mundane events of everyday life

The death of the imagination?

February 2017

I had a bad cold with every possible aches and pain. Luckily my friend cared for me – Watched streaming videos such as “The Crown,” “Downton abbey” and “The Collection.” at his house. (my TV has been intentionally disconnected for many years.)

Since I don’t have a TV, I watched old VHS video “Six Degrees of Separation” at home. I remember I saw the play in some San Francisco theater a long time ago. It was 1st National Tour and Marlo Thomas was cast of Ouisa. I only remembered one line “And never say “couch”. It’s “sofa”.”
The movie version of Ouisa was played by Stockard Channing, what struck me the most was “What is paralysis but the death of the imagination?” If our lives are too shallow, it’s only because we can’t imagine ourselves out of it.
I agree above statement. That’s why I challenge myself to act out my imaginations. So now, my imaginations become alive and finding myself more confidence and refined.

This (my) blog is anecdotes about my retired life. But they were all my experiences. I come to realize that my life has been filled with interesting experiences it has no inherent meaning of its own. Now, I desire to forge deeper relationships with others.

2/03/17: James Monroe Iglehart Concert @ LCA Walnut creek, CA
2/14/17: Valentine’s Day
2/19/17: Hadleigh Adams “Classical Broadway” show at El campanil Theatre in Antioch, CA
2/21/17: Annual Physical Checkup
2/24/17: SF Chamber Orchestra Concert @ Herbst Theatre, SF
2/26/17: Classic movie “In the heat of the night” @ Fox/Bob Hope Theatre in Stockton, CA
2/28/17: Visit Dr. Wu in Roseville, CA

Photo Gallery – February 2017